Long Distance

There`s only so many songs that i can sing to pass the time.
And i`m running out of things to do to get you off my mind (oh whoa).
All i have is this picture in a frame (oh ah),
That i hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where i`d rather be,
But we`re stuck where we are.
It`s so hard, you`re so far..
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me,
But we`re stuck where we are
It`s so hard, you`re so far.. (so hard, you`re so far..)
This long distance is killing me.

It`s so hard, it`s so hard, where we are, where we are, you`re so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It`s so hard, it`s so hard, where we are, where we are, you`re so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far).
This long distance is killing me.

Now the minutes feel like hours
And the hours feel like days.. (whoa oh whoa)
While i`m away (way-ay)
You know right now i can`t be home (ah)
But i`m coming home soon (ah)
Coming home soon.. (ah a hah)
All i have is this picture in a frame (ah),
That i hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where i`d rather be (where i`d rather be..),
But we`re stuck where we are (oh oh).
It`s so hard, (oh ah) you`re so far.. (oh ah)
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me),
But we`re stuck where we are (oh oh)
It`s so hard, (oh ah) you`re so far.. (oh ah)

Can you hear me crying?
Ooh (oh-oh oh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Ooh (oh-oh oh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Ooh (oh-oh oh-oh)
Ooh woo whoa ah ah oh ah (oh-oh ah!)
Uh ah uh ah whoa0h ah (oh-oh oh-oh)

With you is where i`d rather be (where i`d rather be..) whoa!
(but we`re stuck where we are) oh!
(it`s so hard) so hard (your so far), so far
(this long distance is killing me) this long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me) me..
(but we`re stuck where we are) stuck where we are! so hard! so far
This long distance is killing me

It`s so hard, it`s so hard, where we are, where we are, you`re so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It`s so hard, it`s so hard, where we are, where we are, you`re so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far).
This long distance is killing me.

There`s only so many songs that i can sing to pass the time.
Send "long distance" ringtone to cell phone

Berteman Sepi

Penaku menari mencoretkan
Sebuah puisi kelukaan
Gurindam jiwa
Cinta dan airmata
Di kamar hati ini
Masih ada sembunyi
Kenangan yang tak mampu
Ku lemparkan jauh

Penaku menari melakarkan
Gambar kesayuan masa silam
Tinta bersulam biru
Warna kerinduan
Berkaca jernih ingatanku
Biarpun dikau telah jauh
Dari pandanganku

Manisnya pertemuan
Pahitnya perpisahan
Segala kini tidak dapat
Untukku bahasakan
Semua kini kaku
Tiada lagu merdu
Setiap madah baris kata
Bukannya lagi buatmu

Kini berteman sepi
Kini aku sendiri
Suka dan duka
Dalam meniti gelombang
Kembara panjang

Jauh melangkah pergi
Tidak menoleh lagi
Kenangan silamku
Tinggal tertulis kini
Dalam sebuah puisi

Penaku menari membariskan
Puisi sebuah pengalaman
Gurindam jiwa cinta dan airmata
Di kamar sepi ini
Titisan membasahi
Dan aku tidak tahu
Pada siapakah untukku luah rasa

Yang Terindah Hanya Sementara

Setinggi seluas gunung dan lautan
Sejuta harapan dipertaruhkan
Beronak berliku jalan kulalui
Selagi berupaya kuteruskan

Alangkah sukarnya memadam bayangan masa silam
Di dalam keberanian terusik jua perasaan
Tidak hentinya memanjang dan semoga jiwa ini terus tabah

Sesungguhnya saat yang terindah hanyalah sementara
Yang terpahat di dalam diri hanya kenangan dan nestapa

Tak rela kuturutkan hati
Menyesali apa yang terjadi
Andainya begitu suratan yang tertulis diazali

Biarlah walaupun kusepi
Sedih pedih dikhianati
Aku kan tetap terus mengorak langkah perjalanan ini

Living without a courage.. how do you live?

i tot things was getting better.. i all happens when hopes start to lift us up off the ground.. and there i am again crashed and crushed again.. and again.. i don;t know if i am living in a lie.. for one thing for sure, i didnt lie about what i truly felt..
it is sincere.. real.. true.. pure.. love.. and yet still.. it never been good enough..
it is when others wanted so much of what we have and yet some just turn themselves away from what they have..
i'm not sure if i'm blind or if they're blind.. maybe all of us are indeed blind.. blinded by our ego, stupidity and selfishness.. and not being selfish i am letting it go.. though i bleed over and over again. i dunno how many tons of tears i had shed for this one.. how deep my wounds had been for being hurt all over again.. and its for the same old reason.. Courage..
no words can truly describe how i feel and what's going on in my heart & head.. if one can be confused & lost being in this situation, i can put double across theirs.. why? coz i am always at the losing end of the rope..
now i am the one losing courage to tell myself to move on.. coz why? i love him deeply.. and yet all that gone down the drain..
Courage meant to be strong and firm.. but coz of courage i am now at the losing end..
Living without a courage.. how do you live?

My Life Would Suck Without You

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so disfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

never ending pain

its a rainy afternoon and i'm home feeling heavy and not wanting so much of this pain again..
it seems that this problem of mine is gonna be much painful than before and keep in this way till.. God knows when.. i cant imagine when the doc advised to start a family so i could get off this pain but hey, not an easy task in either way. i just hope painkillers wont add more pain in times to come and guess i need to visit the doc like what? - every month!?.. sigh.. oh well..

talking about being in pain.. well which part of life aint painful huh.
it is even painful to be happy.. for there's some price to pay still.. yeah thanks to those who just cant seem to have peace seeing others happy.. oh well.. GTH..
now am just so packed with so many things to do. work is draining much of my energy everyday.. so what's new?

anyways this year's IT show is more packed than last year's. that's strange.. coz at least for last year's, i could still walk my way thru & alone.. but this time the crowd is like doubling despite the economic crisis.. anyways.. gota go now.. cant stare too long on da screen. no1) rain.. no2) i'm all drowzy .. no 3) need to rest!

Stay in Love.. With you...

Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you don't know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds and I know

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gonna act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
'cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you